Shedding Light On Darkness
I accept the challenge of soul growth. I have not chosen an easy path – a commitment to see the light also requires a commitment to see the dark. Allowing light and spirit to work in my life is an act of courage and surrender. When the light goes on, it illuminates the entire scene. There is nothing that darkness avoids more than light: wickedness works in the shadows, manipulation depends on no one bringing it out into the open. Once it is out in the light, it cannot maintain the enormous power it exerted in the gray spaces.
I can tolerate light.
When each day / is sacred, when each hour / is sacred, when each instant / is sacred, earth and you / space and you bearing the sacred / through time you’ll reach / the fields of light
Asking for Help
I can accomplish a lot in life if I am willing to ask for help. The psychological and emotional position of asking for help humbles and opens me up to new learning; it automatically lowers my defenses.
On a spiritual level, the words “seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be opened unto you” describe an inner reaching toward something beyond the temporal experience, an acknowledgment of forces beyond the illusion of reality. Asking for help on this level connects me with the quantum physical level or the mind of God; it allows spirit to work in my life. There are forces beyond my vision that are alive and operational. Asking for help invites them to work in my life. It moves me from my stuck position so that I can open up to change. It promotes a shift in my awareness.
I can and will ask for help.
Faith – is the pierless bridge supporting what we see
Unto the scene that we do not.
Transcending the Flesh
I will not use the shortcomings in this world as an excuse for the shortcomings in me. My path is not to imitate what is wrong, but to lead in what is right. Each positive example I set by actually embodying or being what I believe in improves this world.
I am willing to lead.
I was doing a show on victims confronting their criminals. A 17-year-old girl was on the air speaking to the man who, four years earlier, had beaten her beyond recognition and left her for dead. She’d had 17 surgeries and complete facial reconstruction. She said to him, “I don’t hate you. I hate what you did to me. And I have had to learn to forgive you so I could go on with my own life.” To this day it is the most powerful thing I’ve ever seen. In that moment, she expressed why we’re here – to learn to love in spite of the human condition, to transcend the human condition of being fearful. We get so bogged down in worldly things we don’t understand that we’re here for a spiritual quest. Understanding that this is a journey is the most exciting part of being human. It has revolutionized my life.
Today I will see miracles in ordinary living. I will train my eye and my inner vision to notice the wondrous and mystical world that surrounds me. Why do I need proof of eternity and the essential creative power of the universe – can’t I perceive it by holding, in my hand, just one flower; or by watching the sun disappear behind the horizon, or rising to the song of birds? Living itself is a miracle. When I learn to see the miraculous that is a part of the world I live in, I will find it easier to allow soul to be alive within me. Nothing less than this would be in tune with this alive universe in which I live.
I will see miracles in ordinary life.
Why, who makes much of a miracle?
As to me, I know of nothing else but miracles,
Whether I walk the streets of Manhattan,
Or dart my sight over the roofs of houses toward the sky…
Every cubic inch of space is a miracle,
Every square yard of the surface of the earth
Is spread with the same.
True grief will cleanse my soul. I will trust it and allow it to do its healing work. Nature has built a mechanism into me for releasing emotional pain – I know that experiencing my feelings is the surest and quickest way in and out of the pain. I will not be at war with my own insides, asking them to hide from me, creating an inner person that I don’t want anyone to see. The person that I pretend to hide from the world, I am really hiding from me. Today I know that there is no need for that – what I keep in hiding only grows in strength, what I let go of will set me free. When I cry, I release enzymes from my body. It is a chemical release, nature’s way of letting pain leave me. I will not deny myself the benefit of this inner physician.
Tears cleanse my soul.
Where praise already is the only place grief ought to go, that water spirit of the pools of tears; she watches over our defeats to make sure the water rises clear from the same rock.
Rainer Maria Rilke
I will release myself from the compulsion to repeat destructive and painful patterns, by being willing to acknowledge the wounds that lie beneath them. In my attempts to keep these wounds from being known, I keep myself away from important parts of myself. Then I seek out situations that will allow my wounds to surface and be felt. My unconscious knows what it is carrying within it and wants it to come to the surface so that it can heal. While I hold it in darkness, I keep an emotional infection from getting the light and air that it needs to heal. I will not glorify living mindlessly and without pain. I will use my pain to cleanse my self.
I am willing to acknowledge my wounds.
I am ill because of wounds to the soul, to the deep emotional self. and the wounds to the soul take a long, long time, only time can help and patience, and a certain difficult repentance, long difficult repentance, realization of life’s mistakes and the freeing of one’s self from the endless repetition of the mistake . . . has chosen to sanctify.
D. H. Lawrence
When I talk about having a mature relationship with my parents, it is really a process of seeing them as human. My parents’ opinion was only theirs; there is another world out there – I may see the whole situation differently. They are not the people who define me.
Painful feelings toward my parents are natural. When I learn that my parents do not die from my anger and that I do not lose the love relationship with my parents because of negative feelings, then being dependent in intimate relationships later in life becomes less threatening. If the love and hate are not understood and accommodated within this deep parent/child relationship, later intimate relationships that arouse feelings of dependency will seem frightening.
Anger toward the parent is as natural as love toward the parent, and this is true of any deep relationship.
I can live with both the love and hate that are part of deep dependent relationships.
Let my heart be wise. It is the god’s best gift.
If I accept my mind as being truly creative and having genuine power in my life, then the state of my life is dramatically affected by my inner beliefs, by what I have accepted to be truths about myself and my world. What a sobering thought. I, by my thinking and through my attitudes, profoundly influence and shape my life. I want to think that this is New Age psycho-babble, but something in me has already observed this process at work. The changes that I have made for the better began first in my mind – originated as a thought that there might be a better way.
I will take seriously what goes through my mind.
Mind is the creator of everything. You should therefore guide it to create only good. If you cling to a certain thought with dynamic will power, it finally assumes a tangible outward form. When you are able to employ your will always for constructive purposes, you become the controller of your destiny.
In order to grow, we must struggle. Children struggle as they move through developmental stages, sorting and resorting what they learn and adapting it to new challenges. Our brain grows with use; new information creates brain growth and alters cell assemblies or particular constellations of memories. Part of struggling is working through previous stages into new ones, changing thoughts and behavior patterns, continually shaping and reshaping the self. When I am able to struggle, I can change, and I can allow others to change in my presence. I can move through stages of life without getting marooned in one because I can’t face the anguish of the struggle toward a new one.
I am willing to struggle.
The beauty of the soul shines out when a man bears with composure one heavy mischance after another, not because he does not feel them, but because he is a man of high and heroic temper.
I can see anger as information for me in getting to know my own personality. Anger can be seen as energy, energy that can be used to motivate self-affirming action. For instance, if I am angry that I am being left out of a situation by my employer, strolling into the employer’s office and getting mad is only going to exacerbate the problem. The anger can be used to inform me that I am not happy with the situation, and the energy from the anger can propel me into taking an action on my own behalf. The action may have apparently little to do with the anger. It may be doing something, some bit of work unusually well, or bringing to the employer’s attention something that I accomplished. In that case, anger is motivating me to take action that will be constructive. The energy from the anger is being used to further my cause, to help to position myself in a way that will feel better to me.
I will use my anger constructively.
He who doesn’t know anger doesn’t know anything.
He doesn’t know the immediate.